“How fully should we be restored if we were perfect in obedience!” -Charles Spurgeon, The Obedience of Faith
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Discipline and holiness sometimes get a bad wrap. I think that’s a little bit dangerous.
I get it: I certainly align myself with grace-centered theology. I am nothing without Jesus. But I know grace cost Him His life, and I don’t want to cheapen it with disobedience. I also don’t want to miss out on living out of my true identity and the folds of grace offered to me therein. I am a disciple! That’s what the word discipline comes from. To separate myself from discipline is to separate myself from who I am, who He paid for me to be: a sheep in His flock, following His lead as He ripens me toward glory.
Like a Shepherd, He does all the work in winning me to Himself, giving me eternal life, but it’s my choice if I will join with Him in discipline. How often I choose to go my own way in an easier current. I know He is living bread and water, but I choose to fill my mind instead with chatter that just doesn’t speak truth to me, totally missing out on an abundant feast. Even the most second-nature, tired choice is not neutral. Either I’m shaping my life to get a better view of Him or manipulating it to look more deeply into myself.
I love the “if, then” promises of Scripture where the causal relationship between simple obedience and rich grace is so motivatingly clear. Look what He offers when I engage with His rhythm–all the things I need so desperately. Peace. Refreshment. Strength. Enrichment. Streams of water. He abundantly provides when I “show up” in His presence, making my faith robust through the simplest acts of faithfulness:
“Oh, that you had paid attention to my commands! Then your peace would have been like a river.” -Isaiah 48:18
“The mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace.” -Romans 8:6
“Repent, therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, in order that times of refreshment may come from the presence of the Lord.” -Acts 3:19
“Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.” -Isaiah 40:31
“Whoever brings blessing will be enriched; he who waters will himself be watered.” -Proverbs 11:25
Our justification is by faith alone, but our choices in the mundane can shape our days. We stumble upon peace when we’re walking with Jesus. It’s a byproduct that can’t be avoided. He’s so kind to unlock these things for us in the Gospel!
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How far along? 18 weeks
Baby is the size of a: My pregnancy app said dragonfruit. Let’s be real, none of us knows how big that is. I did a little reading and found sweet potato to fit better…and, it’s seasonal. Baby is just over 5″ long and almost 7 ounces! Working its way up to a whole pound soon.
Total weight gain: 2 lbs over my pre-pregnancy weight, but I’ve gained a total of 7 lbs back after losing a bunch of weight from getting sick. I have no worries about getting bigger…which is why I’m eating every meal twice almost daily. :)
Maternity clothes? I still alternate between maternity jeans (I just have the one pair) and my normal jeans, unbuttoned and unzipped plus belly band. My preference is always sweatpants, though, or dresses with tights. I wish it was maxi dress season, because I’d be all over that. (Shoutout to Marley’s mama).
Sleep: Aside from my dog puking up socks two nights this week, pretty good. Seems like I want to go to bed earlier and earlier. If I hit the hay past 10, I’m super groggy and my eyes burn the next morning. That’s happened twice this week.
Best moment this week: I loved the long weekend and getting to spend time with lots of friends. I get another one next weekend, since I’m taking Monday and Tuesday off for our out-of-town visitors.
Movement: Haven’t felt much lately, but I read the baby is moving more than ever at this point.
Food cravings: Nothing noteworthy. Still having a hard time with meat. Realized I haven’t had any red meat since I’ve been pregnant– I only like salty meats like ham and bacon and, sorry, corn dogs. Carbs are easier for me to eat than protein these days, though I am still loving cheese and yogurt.
Miss Anything? I really wanted a little hard cider on Thanksgiving, but, no can do. I also miss being able to sit in any posture I find most convenient, but my belly region feels a little crammed lately.
Symptoms: If I twist and turn the wrong way while sleeping, I wake up really sore. Time for a pregnancy pillow. I ordered one of those bad boys on Amazon this weekend, since I’m having a harder time sleeping on my side than I thought I would. It’s hard to give up sleeping on my belly!
Mood? Looking forward to one last Thanksgiving celebration with a big group of friends tonight. I guess that answers the next question, too…
Looking forward to: The next milestone – gender reveal in a two weeks. Still definitely picturing a girl, but I could totally be wrong, and I’d be happy with either. We have names picked out for each sex, so I’m really excited to start calling the little bean by name. We haven’t decided if we’ll tell people, but knowing my general dislike for surprises, we probs will. 20% of readers probably already know our choices. :)